We are making our way through February so if you are not a fan of winter, spring is just a hop, skip and a jump from Valentine’s Day.
Oh sure…we will have cold weather and no signs of green for several months but once the calendar says March, we will embrace Spring or at least the promise of it.
The last few days I have had a weird pain in my knee. I kind of tweaked it a couple of times and then on one of my longer drives i realized I had held it in the same position for the whole time so I chalked it up to that. Until it woke me (and my patient and kind husband) up on Wednesday night.
We got through it and it seems better today, but of course I googled the symptoms and came up with a ton of possible diagnoses.
I contemplated calling our daughter who was the Nurse Practitioner for an orthopedic surgeon for a number of years to get her input.
I have several other nurse friends and I considered checking in with them as well. I also have some friends who do a lot of research on their own with holistic health measures and they would be my next go to for medical concerns.
*if you are a medical person or have an ounce of common sense, please hold tight…there is a point being made here….ok…back to the story…***
This is my typical method of dealing with questions regarding the various aches and pains and such that tend to crop up.
The last thing on my radar is usually the first thing my, as formerly mentioned, patient and kind husband suggests…and repeats. Frequently.
Why don’t I go see a doctor? …he will ask and I have as many excuses as searches on my computer.
They are stacked up in my head and here are just a few:
I don’t have the time (yes, I know…I invest large chunks of time chasing web diagnosis…don’t lecture me. I am aware of my problem)
- I am afraid of what they will tell me
- It’s probably nothing
- It might be something awful
- It will probably cost a bunch of money
- If they tell me to do this or that unpleasant thing, I won’t want to do it.
It’s embarrassing since most of the doctors and nurses in this small town are people I pass in the lobby at church, sit next to the table of when dining out, wait on them and/or their spouses at the store…you name it – they are too close to my daily life to be that intimate with what’s wrong with me.
There you have just a few and as I ticked them off in my head today as I, yes…made my way to a doctor for not my knee, but my nose…
it occurred to me that I can do the same thing with my spiritual health.
I will have some kind of conviction about behavior that I know doesn’t line up with God’s Word. Something is amiss in my spirit and soul.
But I don’t go to God.
I read about it from a topical “Christian” book or article.
I google the issue and see what advice is out there.
I talk to friends.
I self-talk about it trying to work it through.
I make excuses.
Why don’t I go to God?
- an investment of time I think I don’t have
- a fear of what He is going to tell me
- maybe it really isn’t that big of deal..lots of other people have the same issue and they are ok
- maybe it is way bigger than I even thought possible and I don’t want to open up the mess
- it may cost me something I don’t want to give up
- it may involve some unpleasant refining
- it’s embarrassing to be humbled ….
which is, after all the whole point right?
I can’t get healed if I won’t take it to the Healer.
What’s bugging you these days?
Take time to get face to face with God and work it out with Him <3
Isaiah 1:18-20 The Message (MSG)
Let’s Argue This Out
18-20 “Come. Sit down. Let’s argue this out.”
This is God’s Message:
“If your sins are blood-red,
they’ll be snow-white.
If they’re red like crimson,
they’ll be like wool.
If you’ll willingly obey,
you’ll feast like kings.
But if you’re willful and stubborn,
you’ll die like dogs.”
That’s right. God says so.
The Message (MSG)Copyright © 1993, 1994, 1995, 1996, 2000, 2001, 2002 by Eugene H. Peterson