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How are you doing?


Last week I backed off of writing because faking it isn’t my deal.

God didn’t call me to set up camp here in this little slice of the internet to give you all anything but exactly what the focus of this blog is about…

sharing my journey with you…

the crazy and fun stuff….

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the “trying to figure out and find the way” stuff…

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the snarky perspectives on the goofiness of humanity,

including and especially that of your’s truly…


All of it…the good, the bad and the ugly.

But sometimes the bad and ugly build up something fierce, and finally they got me.

I was not blessed with a poker face, and while I can truthfully say the Lord has delivered me from a propensity to bouts with depression…the only picture I could think of to describe how I was feeling was the scene in the Lion King when young Simba is baking on the cracked floor of the desert while vultures make their descent onto his lifeless form.

So I retreated to the place and the One that knows my heart, knows exactly how much I can take.


Instead of writing, I read…

I read His Word directly from my Bible…but I also read anything I could get my hands on that teaches ABOUT His Word…

and one of those books I burned through is Fervent by Priscilla Shirer; which exposes the dirty, behind-the-“seen’s” efforts of the enemy to shut us down and render us helpless and ineffective.

Now I am studying through the chapters with pen and journal in my prayer closet;

doing the “work” of the teaching instead of just saying…

“Great book….now onto the next one…”

We need to not just learn God’s Word….we must APPLY it…

I look at the news this week:

Devastations from earthquakes and tornadoes

More upheaval in the on-going conflicts of nations

Political murkiness of our own nation

Heart-wrenching rips in families near and dear to my heart

Health issues, relationship issues, discouragement, defeat, betrayal..

So this morning, I want to share with you the prayer God inspired in my heart after meditating on how I have let the enemy…

(WITH my full cooperation, mind you!!)…

do some serious damage to  my PASSION in prayer, in serving Christ, and in living.

Priscilla teaches that as we pray for spiritual things, we must include repentance and praise along with our petitions for the greater gifts of faith…and so I took that to heart as I wrote out my prayer.

Keep that in mind when you read…that my actual prayer starting out was for God to restore my PASSION for HIM….


Heavenly Father God, I look back and I see You – Your faithful Hand -every age and every stage.

In the midst of dark times, I couldn’t always see it; I couldn’t always feel it.

Sometimes  glimpses; sometimes nothing and yet…

OH! When I look back, my life is absolutely and beautifully and faithfully covered with Your fingerprints.

I have failed You

hid You away

ignored You

tried to manipulate You

rebelled against You

betrayed You

mocked You

even blamed You and used Your name to curse my circumstances.

And I have seen You look down through eyes blurred by the blood seeping from each one of those thorns You wore for me…

and I have heard You breathe out with painful, final gasps….


forgive her.

She doesn’t know,

doesn’t REALLY know,

what she is doing.

I praise You that because You forgave me, I have run to You.

Hidden my sorry self IN You.

I have laughed with You and wept with You.

I have felt Your love wrap tightly around my heart when I thought it would shatter into a million, billion pieces…crushed so fine that it could never be healed. 

You have gathered up every shard and held it in Your nail-scarred Hands until it could beat again.

And I have felt You pry the steel cold fetters of unforgiveness off my hardened heart so that life could course once again through my weary body.

I have felt Your Peace in situations where I looked around with surreal wonder that I was not coming undone, but was, indeed, making it through.

I have heard Your voice call my name,

my actual NAME….


and when you said it

and the way you said it…

it was like You were looking out over some grand vista of Creation and You were inviting me to come and see it with You.

All full of delight, as if You couldn’t wait for me to see what You were seeing up ahead.

And now, Lord, I just realized that I started out this  prayer with the intent of asking that You would gift me again with Passion to pray..

and as my pen has scrawled out the meditations of my soul to first address Repentance and Praise…

You have gone on ahead of me and answered the prayer of my heart.

I am renewed with such great love for You.

But Lord, I know it is early in the day and I am in this safe place with You.

The stuff of life is out there, so I ask You, believing and receiving, that You would continue to restore Your Passion in me for prayer.

Empower and enable me to take this moment of fullness in You and begin to pray Your Kingdom Come into the pain, sorrow and brokeness of our world.

I ask in Jesus’ Name <3


May God truly refresh and bless each one of you today in whatever you are facing.

He IS mighty to save <3

His GRACE and MERCY are amazing <3

Jeremiah 29:12-14The Message (MSG)

 When you call on me, when you come and pray to me, I’ll listen.

When you come looking for me, you’ll find me.

Yes, when you get serious about finding me and want it more than anything else, I’ll make sure you won’t be disappointed. God’s Decree.

I’ll turn things around for you. I’ll bring you back from all the countries into which I drove you—God’s Decree—bring you home to the place from which I sent you off into exile. You can count on it.




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  1. Love this one, Laura. I just started reading this book. I can see it is more a workbook than a “read” book. Love you always!

    1. Thank you Susan. I usually “journal” as I read, but really think Russ would enjoy reading this – so insightful into prayer and the battle with the real enemy. So figured he might like to be able to actually read the typed words without all my additions!! haha! Bless you!!!

  2. Great message, Laura. I’ve been wanting to do another Priscilla Shirer study. The Armor of God was a life changer. I saw Fervant and it sounded very good. I will check into It. Glad you have your feet on solid ground!

  3. There are many “religious” people in the world today and I am so glad that you are NOT one of them. You are real, Miss Laura. You are a Christian. When I read this today, it was so ontime in the Spirit and so necessary for God’s children. We do live in a world that is falling apart, but I believe with all my heart that God is still in control. I am holding on to that promise. God bless you and as I have said before, keep following His Holy Spirit as you do and you will always be on time in your writing and sharing.

    1. Thank you Rebecca for your words of encouragement. I agree whole-heartedly! God is Sovereign! He is in control and we hold fast to Him and to His promises no matter what our circumstances or those of the world look like. He is faithful, for sure, and we must keep encouraging others to look to Him. Bless you <3

  4. Thank you again dear friend Laura for your words penned (or typed) so poignantly to pierce my heart! You have a way of writing that touches the soul of those who read your words that can only come from the heart of THE ONE who holds and sustains you. I thank Him for every thought and prayer for you! Thank you!

    1. Girl…I am including all your handles on this…love every one of them and what each of those names mean to the people who use them to address you, dear friend. But my all-time favorite will always be…Blue One <3

  5. ❤️Thanks again Laura… And by the way thank you for being the hands and feet and voice of Jesus this morning in the garbage…literally ☺️

    1. Oh my…I think our friend baling stinky leftovers was the true hands and feet of Jesus <3 Love you dear <3

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