Hello Monday!

That’s me today…moving slow…with much to do…the story of my life.

So I am checking in with a little thought that I was smacked in the face with as I sat in church yesterday morning.

Quick background…our church introduced a new service schedule two weeks ago. Along with time changes, we now offer two services at the same time. The new location is called the East Auditorium and is a mirror of what is going on in the other location except we have a live feed of the sermon on a big screen.

I wasn’t sure how this would be for me, but I wanted to be supportive. The first week was surprisingly more “church-feeling” than I anticipated. But yesterday I encountered my first major adjustment.

Our pastor spoke about the way we offer praise in the midst of our traditional celebrations. As part of the sermon, he had a chef near him carving a turkey. Which was all well and good except the camera would pan over to the turkey only occasionally…

Now hear me please!! I am in no way dissing the camera operator!!!

But I was watching with fascination as I listened to the sermon and suddenly…no turkey carver…just Pastor Wayne holding his bible and talking.

So being fully blonde, I looked over past the edge of the screen but of course…no chef, no turkey.

And all of a sudden I was very frustrated and dissatisfied and feeling really cheated that I could only see what was on the screen right in front of me.

All of a sudden in the middle of church, of all places….I had to die to myself.

I had to die to what I wanted.

I had to die to what I can control.

So while the sermon was a good one…and the turkey samples they handed out were delicious…

God had a different teaching for me yesterday than was probably intended by the sermon planner.

And I am okay with that.

I can’t see all that God is doing right now…I can only see what He is showing me…and it is frustrating…and I am painfully aware that I can’t control what I am allowed to see…

and I can’t control what I am not allowed to see…

and…

I am learning…

to trust that He is there…

working things out…

good things…

and I will see….

So until then, I wait for His revealing of what will be…glimpses of hope…

and I believe and trust in the One who is doing the work…

because He who promised…

is faithful <3